APRIL 29, 2010

Gracious Uncertainty . . . it has not yet been revealed what we shall be . . . —1 John 3:2

“Our natural inclination is to be so precise—trying always to forecast accurately what will happen next—that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing. We think that we must reach some predetermined goal, but that is not the nature of the spiritual life.

... We are uncertain of the next step, but we are certain of God.

...Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come in—but you can be certain that He will come. Remain faithful to Him.” April 29, My Utmost for His Highest.

Tuesday I was very disappointed to find out that Kathie’s throat surgery, a surgery I have been interested in since February 16, 2008 when I first began “capping” her trach, will be postponed until later in May. A postponement may not sound like that big a deal but I have been waiting to complete this task for over two years. Emotionally, news like this “takes the wind out of my sails.” God knows that I am just working for Kathie’s benefit so why don’t the obstacles just disappear and let my plans proceed? As I drove up to see Kathie, I kept thinking about my disappointment and questioning “why.” I have written many times about allowing God to work, witnessing God’s direction but this time there shouldn’t have been a postponement. Of course I recognize that God’s hand guides me through each day so I once again release my plans and ask for God’s direction in my prayers.

“Do you know how to pray in that way – how to prevail in prayer? Let your sight bring you reports as discouraging as possible, but pay no attention to them. Our heavenly Father lives and even the delays of answers to our prayers are part of His goodness.” Arthur Tappan Pierson from Streams in the Desert, April 29.

When I arrived for our lunchtime visit today, I said, “Hi Kath, then I kissed her and stayed nose to nose with her. She seemed to think about the kiss, possibly recognized my voice and gave me a small smile while looking at me. In that moment, I can attack any problem and I thank God for the gift of that little smile.

I am uncertain of the next step, but certain of God. I will let you know when we are next scheduled for Kathie's surgery.
Dave

Comments

  1. UnknownMay 5, 2010 at 8:29 AM

    Hi Dave,
    I've been reading this passage in Utmost during this past week. I've found it very helpful. Thanks for posting about it. Kathie is in our prayers.
    xo, Laura Wilson:)

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  2. Sister of TBI GuyMay 5, 2010 at 4:06 PM

    I just love that description of how Kathie's smile, that little smile, gave you the strength of Hercules or POPEYE!!! God love you two!!!!

    In Christ,
    Laura and family

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